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The Guardian to Paradise. An Angel watches over creation.

Artist:  Stephanie J, McGowan, oil on canvas 16″ x 20″.  Painted around December 2013.

My Portrait of My Husband Robert.

"Portrait of a loving man"  Robert W. McGowan, Jr.

“Portrait of a loving man” Robert W. McGowan, Jr.

 

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My husband Robert appeared one morning and wakes me up from sleep.

 

 

1x1I was sleeping on the couch when I heard a noise which sounded different from normal noises as if the sounds were garbled,  very loud, and possibly from more than one being.   It was about seven in the morning.  I looked without getting up and saw my husband, Robert, quickly moving from the hallway into the living room and into my view before  he disappeared.  He looked  younger and his muscles showed through a T-shirt he was wearing.

There were beautiful multi-colored electrical shapes flowing out from his back and the back of his legs.  Robert was moving extremely fast; then, he quickly stopped and clapped his hands and said “Jeannie! Wake up!”  I was still laying down, but my head was up looking at him.  I was still tired and laid my head on the pillow,  but then I saw my Robert’s  face as I  opened my eyes.  He said  “Jeannie! Wake up.”   He was standing over me, and he did not frighten me at all.  Robert is loving soul.

My husband always called me by my middle name which is Jeanie.  Robert had a habit of clapping his hands when he wanted to wish really hard for something good.  He had a sense of the theatrical about him, but his  innocence,  goodness, and wonderful sense of humor always made me laugh.   I often feel him trying to continue to do this.   I miss him very much, but I know God loves him.

After I got up, I was thankful and felt great that my husband blessed me with his presence.  I thanked God for the gift of seeing my husband again. About almost an hour later,  the phone rang.  The caller was from an agency and he informed me about something which Robert and I talked about before he passed away.

I am glad I answered the phone because it was important, and even though it was a good call there was important information which needed my focus.  My husband knew about this information and he came to visit me, and this is a good thing.   There was also an appointment that could not be missed that day.    In a way, I am glad my cell phone alarm did not go off.

I believe  that God allows love ones to appear and communicate through dreams and visions.  When there is an appearance, it only last a second or two.  Heaven and the  afterlife exist  in a different dimension.   Sometimes I have a whole dream complete with sensory perceptions, and often feel that there are others with me but can not see them.   My children have similar experiences, and an old friend of my husband, David, has mentioned that he often experiences Robert’s presence.

There was also something else which kind of made this vision even more valid.   I found out that one of the switches in our living room was a fire hazard when sparks and small flames started to shoot out from it.  It was only afterwards that I realize when I saw Robert, sparks were coming out of him; however, I believe the shining sparks are also forms of energy.  The electrical unit was fixed before it became an even bigger problem.

My vision  has nothing to do with mediumship, but  God allows me to have these experiences.  These are supernatural experiences of a heavenly kind.  We are Christians.  I do not want to offend God in any way.  I did not call my husband up because that is something we should not do.  God sent my husband to give me warnings, and it was the Lord who allowed this miracle to happen which is something money can not buy.

I believe when we get to heaven, God has assignments for us to fulfill our destiny.  Heaven is not boring.  There is worshiping of God but there is even more for us to do.    We use our gifts on earth, and we also use them in heaven.  I want my readers  to know that I am grateful for my experiences, and maybe there are those who will believe that this life on earth is not really the end.    March 25, 2014

 

 

Dream of my husband Robert with Jesus 02/2014

Dream of my husband Robert with Jesus 02/2014

Yes God  allows our loved ones to communicate.  I know because he is a good God and he loves us.    He brings comfort in many ways.  There are different types of dreams and different reasons why we have  dreams.  I believe all dreams have  meaning.  Sometimes the answers to questions manifest in dreams.   

The prophetic dreams of Daniel focuses on warnings and prophecy.  There are also instructional dreams and revelations.    The apostle John had dream-visions, but his revelations were  for prophecy which included warnings.  My particular dream is on a personal level, but it has spiritual significance.

My husband Robert  often agreed with me when I  said that  some people will not understand, because some are not capable of understanding.   Since my husband Robert went to live in heaven  on January 24, 2014,  I have experienced some dreams and had some spiritual encounters, and I am not the only one.   I appreciate the Lord giving me and my family these insights. 

About three days ago on February 16, 2014  in the early morning hours I had a dream of Robert .  Even though it was a wonderful dream, and it was comforting,  I still  miss his physical presence.   My husband was such a spark of energy and love, and everyday he treated me with love and kindness.   

I fell asleep after reading Bible passages and watching a movie. The first thing I remember in the dream is a feeling of transportation to another place.   It felt like I was moving out and then up from where I was physically sleeping on the couch. I was actually someplace else and going somewhere,  but I had no control over this, and I could not see my physical body.

The first thing I noticed was a beautiful spiral stone pathway that started with a single stone that gradually got wider.  The path was there but there were clouds around the path which hid most of the background.  The stones were round and smooth which natural shades ranging from brown to white. The path grew bigger as more of it became visible.  There was a sense of clean fragrant air which was sweet and felt healing.   Every where I looked nothing was dirty or unclean.

In the background I saw houses of Middle Eastern design.  I saw one doorway to a house  draped  to cover part of the doorway.   I felt other people around me, but I could not see them. Then I  felt a sense of happiness and there was an air of celebration.   My eyes became focused on the path, and from my field of vision,  I saw someone’s beautiful feet wearing sandals approaching the spiral path. When I saw the sandals I felt a feeling of love from  whoever wore them.

My eyes moved up and then I realized it was Jesus walking towards the spiral path.   He was originally close to me but at that time I only saw his sandals.    He appeared near some clouds and I saw that  Jesus wore a beautiful brown and beige robe.   Some of the colors intersected into the cloth across his chest.   Jesus  turned to receive something from someone who handed him a plate.  I could not see this being.    I saw that the plate contained what looked liked two giant dates.

I heard a kind of sound, and I saw my husband Robert sitting with cross legs on  this beautiful  spiral path.   He was in light which was glowing around his face, yet subtle, and light was glowing from within him.  Robert looked at me very briefly and then he looked at Jesus who handed him a plate.  Robert started to talk to Jesus.  I could not hear any of the conversation, but I know Robert was asking Jesus questions.

Jesus handed out more plates of food and then he sat down next to Robert.  Jesus was very friendly,  and he appeared to already know Robert’s concerns.    I thought at one point that he offered  a plate to me, but I am not sure of this.  Jesus had his full attention on Robert and was listening to his questions.

During this dream, I felt my sense of vision being guided and I was not in control.   It was as if someone was next to me telling me what to look at, but I did not hear or see who it was.  I felt a sense of someone being over me .   Maybe I was not supposed to see everything, but the dream had a calming and beautiful effect.

The meaning of the spiritual food has significance because when Robert had pancreatic cancer he could not eat anything.  Sometimes he went to the emergency room for intravenous fluids and nutrients.  He had a rapid form of cancer.  I prayed and often wondered why he became ill, and I am still asking about this.

By the time Robert should have had chemo, the doctor advised us it was not a good idea, because Robert was too sick to receive it.  I felt they should have given him chemo right away, but they waited sixteen days.  The doctor said she could not believe the cancer spread that quickly.  He suffered from a lot of pain during his sickness; so, they  eventually gave him morphine, and he passed away in his sleep at the hospital.  It was on the day that he was scheduled to go to hospice care.

This dream reveals the love of Jesus who is giving Robert spiritual food.   Robert is feasting in heaven and having conversations with Jesus.    I am happy for my husband, but I miss him because he is not physically with me. There is consolation because this dream reveals that Robert is thinking of me and praying for me and our children.   He is asking Jesus to watch over us.

I believe dreams are given to us to communicate with our spirit. This is why it is good to ask the Lord for direction and make sure we are on the right path.  Try to be the best person you can be.  We can all improve.  I know this because my husband Robert tried his best, and he was a great man.  

If You Really Love Me Don’t Cry, By Robert W. McGowan, Jr..

This poem was written by my husband Robert W. McGowan, Jr. who recently passed away.  He wrote this to me, his children, and all those who loved him.  He was very brave, and knew he was going to be with the Lord.  He tried not to show his fear.    He wrote this poem about three days before he passed away which was  on 24 January 2014.  He wanted me to publish it.

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When I get to heaven

I am going to look all around

For the faces on earth that I have found

I know when I get there

There be hundreds waiting to see me

More in heaven than on earth

That I have just left

Jesus will be smiling

Because he needed me there

Looking with a loving stare

He’ll hold my hand and take me to the castle I built

With my good deeds

It will have a stream and a lake

And rainbows all around

And all my friends and love ones

That I lost will be found

The people on earth

That I have just left

Will miss me for a while

Looking around for the things

I have touched with a smile

I knew when I put my clown costume on

I had fixed a lot of smiles

To all the players and all the haters

They will be glad when I am gone

But I will never have to see them

Because they won’t be in Heaven

They’ll be lost and gone

To the people who loved me

Please don’t cry

Because I will be next to you

Looking in your eyes

You will feel me every time you laugh

When you look at my silly pictures

You know my love will never past

Keep a smile tucked under your pillow at night

Of birthday parties past

God bless and good night.

"Pretzel" the Clown, my husband Robert McGowan, Jr.

“Pretzel” the Clown, my husband Robert McGowan, Jr.

By Robert W. McGowan, Jr.

 

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